I Have Been Changed For Good

I was listening to the Wicked soundtrack this evening, and this song resonated with me. I put myself in the place of Glinda and my biological father in the place of Elphaba. Read the words as if we were saying them. I also enclosed a link to the song, so you can hear it. It's quite beautiful. I hope you enjoy.



(Elphaba): Vader
Im limited
Just look at me - Im limited
And just look at you
You can do all I couldn't do, Glinda
So now it's up to you
For both of us - now it's up to you...

(Glinda): Leia
I've heard it said
That people come into our lives for a reason
Bringing something we must learn
And we are led
To those who help us most to grow
If we let them
And we help them in return
Well, I don't know if I believe that's true
But I know I'm who I am today
Because I knew you...

Like a comet pulled from orbit
As it passes a sun
Like a stream that meets a boulder
Halfway through the wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you
I have been changed for good

(Elphaba): Vader
It well may be
That we will never meet again
In this lifetime
So let me say before we part
So much of me
Is made of what I learned from you
You'll be with me
Like a handprint on my heart
And now whatever way our stories end
I know you have re-written mine
By being my friend...
Like a ship blown from its mooring
By a wind off the sea
Like a seed dropped by a skybird
In a distant wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you

(Glinda): Leia
Because I knew you

(Both):
I have been changed for good

(Elphaba): Vader
And just to clear the air
I ask forgiveness
For the things I've done you blame me for

(Glinda): Leia
But then, I guess we know
There's blame to share

(Both):
And none of it seems to matter anymore

(Glinda): Leia
Like a comet pulled from orbit
As it passes a sun
Like a stream that meets a boulder
Halfway through the wood

(Elphaba): Vader
Like a ship blown from its mooring
By a wind off the sea
Like a seed dropped by a bird in the wood

(Both):
Who can say if I've been
Changed for the better?
I do believe I have been
Changed for the better
(Glinda): Leia
And because I knew you...

(Elphaba): Leia
Because I knew you...

(Both):
Because I knew you...
I have been changed for good

The heart wants what the heart wants..

I had a heart to heart with my father a few days ago and during the course of conversation I revealed things to him I have not shared with another person, not even Han. My insecurities, my feelings of inadequacy, my feelings of not being enough. I wasn't enough to give my birth mother a will to live. I am not enough for my birth father, who has never accepted me.

I love my adopted family. They raised me as if their own and I am so thankful for them. Nothing could replace the love I have for them. I tell myself they are all I need, yet late at night when I try to sleep, I know that I need more. I long for acceptance, I long for the love of my birth parents. Sadly, I know those are dreams that can never be realized in this lifetime. Each day I grow more accustomed to the hole in my heart that my birth parents should fill and I long for the day I don't feel it anymore...maybe one day I will have that peace.

Han and Leia

My typist found this video on youtube and it is too cute not to share!
If Han and Leia's story was a romantic comedy, this is what the trailer would look like:

Leia Gaga- Rebel Base

Mum mum mum mah
Mum mum mum mah

My ship was boarded on my way to Alderaan.
Troopers took it over and a search was begun.
((where is it?))
Where are the Death Star plans, I know they’re what you got.
I’m a member of the senate, a diplomatic mission I’m on.

Oh, oh oh oh oh, o-o-o-o-o-oh
I’m in trouble, R2 find Obi Wan.
Oh, oh oh oh oh, o-o-o-o-o-oh
I’m in trouble, R2 find Obi Wan.

Can’t find my
Can’t find my
No he can’t find my rebel base.
(Where is the base located?)
Can’t find my
Can’t find my
No he can’t find my rebel base
(where is the base located?)

r-r-r-rebel base, r-r-rebel base
(Mum mum mum mah)
r-r-r-rebel base, r-r-rebel base
(Mum mum mum mah)

I wanna know the place where your rebels hide.
You need to tell me since you’re going to die.
((Bye Leia))
I have a death ray aimed at precious Alderaan.
One push of a button and your planet is gone.

Oh, oh oh oh oh, o-o-o-o-o-oh
I’m in trouble, R2 find Obi Wan.
Oh, oh oh oh oh, o-o-o-o-o-oh
I’m in trouble, R2 find Obi Wan.

Can’t find my
Can’t find my
No he can’t find my rebel base.
(Where is the base located?)
Can’t find my
Can’t find my
No he can’t find my rebel base
(where is the base located?)

r-r-r-rebel base, r-r-rebel base
(Mum mum mum mah)
r-r-r-rebel base, r-r-rebel base
(Mum mum mum mah)

I will tell you, please don’t harm them
They are peaceful
Cause no trouble, have no weapons.
I’m not lying, if you promise I will tell you info.
Our base location is a secret
Listen carefully before I chicken out.
Our base is on, our base is on
Check it out..it’s on Dantooine.

On Dantooine, on Dantooine, on Dantooine, on Dantoine.

Princess Leia is a liar.

Can’t find my
Can’t find my
No he can’t find my rebel base.
(Where is the base located?)
Can’t find my
Can’t find my
No he can’t find my rebel base
(where is the base located?)

r-r-r-rebel base, r-r-rebel base
(Mum mum mum mah)
r-r-r-rebel base, r-r-rebel base
(Mum mum mum mah)

More Fan Letters

I received this letter in the mail from a fan from the planet Earth in the Milky Way system. It made me smile, so I thought I would share. ((author's note: this letter is actually based on a story my boss told me about his daughter))

Dear Princess Leia,

As Halloween will be approaching soon I thought I would share a story about my daughter with you. She is seven and a huge fan of you. For Halloween, she decided last year to go as Princess Leia. We made her a white Leia dress, put her hair in buns, and even gave her a light saber. We were walking through the neighborhood and at one house, they had a person dresses as the Chainsaw man. He had a chain saw that made noise but had no blade so as not to hurt the children. Anyways, as we got to this house, he came out to scare the kids. Several of them ran to their parents or cried, but my "little Princess Leia" took her light saber, hit him in the leg with it, and said, "Princess Leia fears no one!"

It was so cute and true. You have courage and strength that most do not. You are a role model and one I am proud my daughter has.

Best wishes to you,

Always a fan in Alabama




Always,

Thank you for sharing that. I appreciate the kind words and thoughts. Best wishes to you and your little girl and may the force be with you!


Princess Leia