Trying to process..

So, the one thing I never imagined happening in my life has come to pass. I don't know what to make of it and am having a very hard time dealing with it. You would think a woman who withstood a mind probe by Darth Vader, who watched as her home planet was destroyed, who watched the one she love get tortured and frozen carbonite, who was chained to a disgusting slug named Jabba the Hutt would be able to handle everything. This is different. Too many conflicting emotions. I want to do what's right, I am trying to do what's right but I keep failing. Force give me the strength to put aside my own emotions and be happy for them...don't let me trample my father's happiness...help me to deal..